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Being in the Hallway: Intuition and the State of Not Knowing


Many years ago, a friend of mine told me a funny story about something she experienced during a guided meditation. It has stuck with me ever since, the way things do when they hold a deep kernel of wisdom.


She and I were in a workshop together where the leader led us in a “wise guide” meditation. This is a common type of guided visualization, one I do with my students to this day. In it, participants are led on a journey to meet an inner guide, with the explicit aim of receiving answers or direction from a level deeper than their conscious awareness.


My students are often surprised at how well this works. For virtually everyone, a guide of some kind appears, with something to communicate. And yet, most of the time, the guidance is not what my students expected, or quite what they wanted. They usually feel a little frustrated that the “answers” are not more clear.


That’s how it was with my friend, way back when. During the visualization, in her mind’s eye, she saw herself on a beach. The guide that showed up was a bald-headed, barefoot man in a blue polyester leisure suit. He was smiling, calm as can be, and he had a one-sentence message for her. “Wait here for further instructions,” he said.


That was it? My friend laughed, but she was pissed. “Wait here for further instructions?” she repeated, incredulous. “That’s the best he can do?”


Later, we joked about the ridiculousness of the whole thing. The way her guide looked like some kind of a 70s self-help guru. His cryptic, frustrating message. It was almost like a trick.





Now, years later, I see clearly the deep wisdom there. My friend’s inner guidance was offering her—both of us, really—a reminder about the way things actually work. That often, for reasons we may never understand, it’s not time to know something yet. Being aligned with ourselves on a deep level means surrendering our desire to grasp, our need to know, feeling our way, and waiting until something becomes clear.


This is how intuition or inner guidance works. When we tune in, we may notice feelings or urges to take action, but also that the timing is not up to us. Sometimes the best action is to do nothing, yet. Sometimes we just have to wait—to act, or even just to get clear.


This happens with my clients all the time. Their questions are full of a need to know. Is it time to end the relationship? To leave the job? To move to a new city? The Guides often counsel patience, pointing out where they might be grasping, where they might be rushing, where there might be some learning or discernment to do first. The key is almost always to meander one’s way to the place of inner clarity, rather than to reach for it before its time.


My mom calls this kind of waiting, this state of not-knowing, “being in the hallway.” You’re just in the middle. Things are unclear, or changing, or about to, but nothing is defined. It can be pretty uncomfortable, especially in our culture where everything is supposed to happen right away, and we’re always supposed to know what we’re doing at all times.


But if we can have patience, waiting to get clear can have its own quiet sense of peace to it. Like when we’re waiting for the seasons to change. Or when we’ve planted a seed, but it hasn’t sprouted yet. Or when we feel stirrings within, but we don’t know what they’re about yet, or where they’re going to lead. It’s an in-between time, and it requires a different set of skills. The skills of faith, patience, discernment, and a willingness to stay open to what is on its way.


As channel and medium Paul Selig says, “Not knowing is the beginning of knowing.”


And as Rainer Maria Rilke wrote, in a famous passage from Letters to a Young Poet,

Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything.


As always, I welcome your comments and questions, here on the blog, on Facebook, or via my website!


Much LOVE,

Ask the Guides #10: How to make decisions

The most common question I get from clients is about how to use intuition in a practical way, or how to hear (and trust) their inner guidance. Here’s an example of such a question, and the Guides’ response.




Q: How do I use my inner knowing to make good decisions? I feel like a lot of times my mind says one thing and my “gut” says another, or else I just feel confused trying to discern what is the “right” thing to do.


Dear One,


You are in fear. That is the issue here. When you feel “confused,” or afraid of making a “wrong” decision, that is simply fear. What would you do if you weren’t afraid? That is what we would like you to consider.


Now, that does not mean act. Oftentimes it is fear telling us to act when in fact no action is needed. Other times, we are so afraid to act we do nothing, and stay in a situation longer than is necessary. The thing to remember is that on the level of spirit, on the level of soul, there is no judgment. This is not a theory, or a charitable attitude on the part of the soul. It is a fact. There is no judgment. No one decision is “better” than another. All is for the good, in a sense, even what seems “bad.” We do not judge you the way you judge yourselves. We observe. We love. We embrace. We See. We support. We encourage. That is all.


Now, back to the question. How can One use her inner knowing to make good decisions? Again, we ask you to hear the word “good” as a product of fear. There is fear of doing it “wrong,” and so there is pressure on doing it “right,” and this is the vibration of fear. So the first step is to release the fear. To remember that One is safe. To know that there is no risk, that nothing can harm the Self. That One is free. Amen.


So start with that. Start by looking within and noticing the fear, and then releasing it. That will clear the decks, so to speak. It will create a space for knowing to enter.


Next, there is the practice of radical inner listening. That is a kind of subtle attention to the interior of the self, the inner ear if you will, turned to the many layers of the self in search of the voice of the Self. This is a practice and it will take time. What are the voices you hear? Some may be frantic, or at least very busy. Those are the voices of the mind, and again, a vestige of fear. The “what if, what if, what if” mind is simply fear. Clear out another layer and listen again.


The voice of the Self—the eternal You, the knowing Self—is quiet and calm. It is unperturbed. It is assured of the “outcome,” in a sense, knowing there is no real outcome other than What Is, which is the eternal Now. The Self has your best interests at heart, though it may often encourage you to do or not do something that feels like a risk. Something that feels impractical. Something that feels, to your mind, “wrong” or strange or simply illogical. Like waiting without doing. Like “not worrying about it.” Like trusting. Or like taking a seemingly unrelated action, or small step, that doesn’t seem like enough.


For example, your mind may tell you that you need to run around doing all kinds of things to make a certain thing happen in your life. But your soul may say, “sit and be quiet.” Or, “sit and cry the tears that are waiting to be expressed.” Or, call this certain friend and have a nice chat. Now, why is that? Because your soul is interested in Truth and peace and raising your vibration to a higher level so that you may be clear and so that you may draw to yourself that which is meant for you.


The mind thinks you need to run around like a headless chicken, doing, doing. But the soul knows that sometimes it is the smallest action, the “tweak” of the energy field, the release of emotion, or the connection with another, that makes way for the new to enter. The soul knows that it is energy that truly moves mountains, not effort.


Now, many are awakening to this ancient Truth. That energy is the mover, not doing, not thinking, not fear. And so we would encourage you to mind your energy, to turn your attention inward, to listen for the silent nudges you feel and notice where they seem to take you, what they ask of you, how they feel.


Are they saying, “Be still?”

Are they saying, “All is well?”

Are they saying, do this small thing that you don’t understand but that nevertheless feels right?


All of those can be trusted. All of those are of the Self. The voice of fear has a different quality, a restless, troubled quality, and may be released so that knowing may enter.


Amen, Amen.




As always, I’d love to hear your thoughts, comments, and reflections on this! Much LOVE to all,


Ask the Guides #9: How to Access My Own Knowing

This is Part 1 of a two-part disucssion from the Guides about being in our own knowing. The second part will address the more practical aspect of inner knowing as it relates to everyday decision-making. Here is the question from a client of mine:


Q: Does being in connection with higher energies simply mean being in the state of love? Is this how I access my own knowing?


Dear One,


Yes and no. Being in a state of Love is another way of saying raising your vibration or seeing from a higher place. And yes, that is the precursor to hearing your own guidance or your own knowing. In fact, once you position yourself in a high vibration, there will be no such thing as not Knowing. You will be in a state of Knowing. Many of you are already there much of the time.


What blocks your Knowing is fear. Fear says, “I do not know, I cannot know, what if I am wrong?” Love says, I Am. And in the “I Am” consciousness, the Knowing already exists.


The key distinction we would like you to make is between your human “mood” and your consciousness. It is normal to go in and out of various states of mind, states of mood, and not all of them will feel nice. Sometimes you will be unhappy. Sometimes you will be fearful, or anxious, or angry. That is OK. This does not mean you are doing it “wrong,” and it does not mean you are not able to hear yourself or your inner knowing. It simply means you may not be in touch with it in that moment, because the frequency has dipped, and your ability to “hear” or perceive is temporarily blocked.


The question is, what is your setpoint, your default, your prevailing mode of Being? If your prevailing mode of Being is Love, which is Unity, which is Knowing, you will Know.


Knowing may not look like instructions, per se. It may look like stillness. It may look like an overall sense of wellbeing despite outer events. It may look like a feeling of Oneness that transcends particulars. That is true Knowing. Knowing Who You Are. Knowing what is True, which is that you are Eternal and all is well.


The spiritual novice longs for specifics. The spiritual Elder begins to realize that specifics do not matter. That One will be led. That time is immaterial. That Love is All. That all is well. That is true Knowing.


Amen, Amen.


As always, I’d love to hear your thoughts and comments below, or on my Facebook Page, or on the contact page of my website! Much LOVE to all and look for part 2 tomorrow!


Ask the Guides #8: How Not to Lose Hope

While on vacation earlier this summer, I got a call from a client who was struggling with despair. She is a deeply caring and committed person, and she’s been feeling distressed, as so many of us have, by the separation of families at the border here in the U.S. and the suffering of so many others in our country, all while too many people she knows seem to turn a blind eye. She’s done canvassing for candidates, demonstrations, and spoken out, but she’s still feeling helpless.

“I feel like I’m shouting into the void,” she told me. “And I feel like I’m slipping underwater emotionally myself.”

So many people I know are asking the same questions. How do I not lose hope? How do I stay strong? What can I do to help?

With my client’s permission, I am sharing the guidance that came through for her. Although her despair at the time was focused on the family separations—an issue that is still very much going on—the Guides’ wisdom is universal, speaking to the overall question of how we can respond to a world full of heartbreak and suffering, and how each of us can make a very big difference.

I hope it helps, and a big THANK YOU to my client for letting me share this with you.




Dear One,


Tend to your vibration. This is our guidance to you and to so many at this critical time. For this is indeed a critical time, but not in the way you think. The events on the ground are upsetting, yes. Deeply upsetting on a human level, and indeed, the angels weep, as they say, when Dear Ones are in darkness and when innocents are harmed. The human drama, the drama of duality, is full of pain and heartbreak, and the fact that this is happening in your country is, to many of you, an insult and an affront and a shock to the system. We appreciate this and acknowledge this and we send you Love and comfort at this time of upheaval. We also want to alert you to the bigger story, the larger drama, the extra-human plot unfolding, if you will, so that you may choose accordingly.


The “other side,” if you will, is that group of souls, that energy mass, that would force you into fear. Fear is a form of subjugation, and it is having its day. Well, it has always had its day in your sphere, but now it is on your doorstep. The ones in control are the purveyors of fear at this time in your world (country). They want to make you afraid, they want to make you lose hope, they want to make you hate. This is their fuel. Think of the dementors in Harry Potter. Do not let them suck out your joy. They feed on your fear. Fear is anything that is not Love. Love is your weapon. Love is your safety. Love is your birthright, and Who You Are. So what does that mean?


It means mind your broadcast. Your broadcast is the energy you transmit, and also the energy you receive. Do you see? “They” want you to get hooked into the drama of duality. Your “job” is not to let them. Your job is to keep your energy high, not as a side effect, but as Resistance itself.


Resistance is energetic, first and foremost. This is the most difficult, and most important, thing we would like to convey. The “battle” is a battle for energy. A battle of consciousness. A battle between Light and dark, in a sense. Not “good people” vs. “bad people,” or Us vs. Them, or our policies vs. theirs, though of course this is how it is manifested on the ground level. But to work on that ground level is not in fact the most effective place to work. We hate to tell you this because we know it creates inner discord, confusion, even guilt. But we are not saying do not act. We are saying, act where your heart is aligned, where you can stay in Love. And, more importantly, act on the level of energy. Know that the real change is happening on the level of consciousness, not on the ground. Not by yelling and forcing, but by Love.


And what is Love? It is holding a vibration. It is affirming a new world. You are the Ones who will bring in the new world, and you will do it, ARE doing it, via your vibration.


Do you understand now? Being “OK” is not a sin, it is the very point, in that your OKness—not your privilege and comfort but your high vibration—is what ushers in change. As above, so below. As within, so without. You fight back by refusing to lower yourself to the level of vibration where fear can exist. Every day, tend your vibration. Every day, BE the peace that you seek. Every day, insist on the Presence of the new world coming into Being. “Be the change you want to see” is an energetic truth. Many will not understand, but they will feel, on a subtle level, the effects of your frequency on themselves. It will lift them up, and together you will lift up the energy of the whole.


Now, we want to say a word about the victims of this time, and about the danger you perceive. Yes, there is suffering, and from a human vantage point it is indeed terrible. But every soul involved has agreed to play her part. Every soul involved is an actor in this play, and their suffering is but the blink of an eye compared to the glory All will enjoy and experience in the coming Age. Now, from the human vantage point, this sounds like what you would call a colossal rationalization. We assure you it is not. We assure you it is True. Bless those brave souls who have chosen to live in darkness and play their parts well. Bless those human souls who have chosen to take the part of innocent victim. They are indeed holy. Bless those that are sleeping. Bless those that are enraged. Hold them all in your Circle of Light, your circle of Love, and thank them, yes, thank them for the Service they are providing to the inhabitants of Earth and to the cosmos, so All may awaken and be transported into the Light.


Now, what to do? Tend your vibration, yes. Be the Resistance, yes. Beyond that, we say, listen to your heart. What do you want? Not what you “should” do. But what do you want? Your heart will know. You do not have to be “happy.” That may be too strong an ask for these times. But there is a deeper current, and that is inner joy. The vessel takes inner joy from doing this work, although she is not always “happy.” But she has found her place in terms of the Resistance, in terms of helping to raise the vibration of others. You too have a place, a way, to tap that inner joy and do your part. It does not need to be in the streets, although it could be if that is where joy is found.


Where is joy found? Where is your radical joy? For joy is a radical act. It proclaims Divine Union in its very Being. It proclaims essential goodness in the face of fear. It is the celebration of life in the face of Death, and in that sense, it vanquishes all that would seek to quash it.


That is your path. That is your work. The form it takes is only important in that it gives you joy and fulfills your requirements while keeping your energy high. This is being a Freedom Fighter as much as anything. Affirming life in the face of fear. Affirming Joy in the face of hate. Loving those who would conquer you, and in doing so, conquering All.


We send you great blessings today and every day, Beloved One. Namaste, Amen.




As always, I’d love to hear your thoughts and comments, either here on the blog, on Facebook, or via the Contact page of my website. And if you’d like a reading for yourself, please don’t hesitate to get in touch! Check out my booking page or write to me with any questions you may have!

Much LOVE and Light to you all,


Ask the Guides #7: Separations at the Border


To be honest, I’ve been avoiding asking the Guides about what’s happening at the U.S. border. I’ve been so heartbroken and horror struck by what’s taking place, I didn’t want to hear how it’s all OK or part of God’s plan. And I’ve been finding it hard to sit down with my own outrage and helplessness long enough to ask.


But then, the other night, I was sharing a glass of wine with a friend in her backyard and our conversation came back, over and over again, to the children and families we’ve seen on the news. How we are thinking about them constantly. How we are losing sleep over it. How we have to figure out what to do, how to help.


“Have you asked the Guides?” she asked me, and I admitted that I hadn’t. As we said goodbye at the end of the night, I promised her I would. Their answer, as usual, is both comforting and challenging, not exactly what I expected but not totally surprising. I expected them to talk more about the families and less about the perpetrators of these cruel policies and how we might think about them.


In any case, I offer their words to you in Love and welcome your thoughts.




Q: What do we need to know about the separation of families at the border? What can we do? What is the role of those who care?


The Guides respond:


Dear Ones,


Do not fear. This would be our first counsel to you. There are those acting in fear and in control and the temptation is to respond with fear as well. “What does this mean? Where is this taking us? Who are we now?”


Well, there have always been those who have ruled and acted out of fear and the need for control. That is what you are seeing now and the terrible price that gets paid when such Ones are in control. Fear and control break hearts because they deny the humanity of others. They [those who act from fear/control] are separate from God and from Source and from themselves—that is to say, from Who They Really Are—and so they enforce that separation onto others, both literally and figuratively.


The immigrant, the refugee, stands, in the minds of those enforcing separation, for the other. For all they would “other” in themselves. For all they want to keep out, not only in society but in themselves. The Shadow. Lack. Vulnerability. Deprivation. Fear. They push it out of themselves and say,

We are not that.

I am not that.

We reject that.

And in so doing they deny themselves Love and deny the love of others, while also doing great injury to others. They do this in darkness and fear, and so deserve a bit of compassion themselves, for what they do not understand.


Their ability to separate children from their parents is also evidence of deep separation in themselves. The bond between a mother and child, between a parent and child, is the closest thing on Earth to the relationship between God or Source and the individual soul, two as one, and to see young children broken from their mothers, from their parents, is to see that bond ruptured in a terrible way. It is a denial of the Self in every way [on the part of the enforcer of such separation] and a punishment no child should ever have to bear.


And yet, and yet. It is taking place, at least on this level of reality, which we would remind you is not the Real-est. But it is the primary one in which you live for now, so what is One to do?


Reject separation in all its forms. Proclaim Oneness in all its manifestations. Be One. Hold that All are One. See every One as One, including those who would enforce separation. Do you see? Even those you “hate” are One.


We realize it is difficult for you to summon compassion for those who act badly, who are the agents of harm, and yet it is your role as champions of Oneness to keep all inside the circle of Love, even those you despise. Do not hate them, as much as you hate and abhor their actions. Love them by inviting them into the circle of Oneness, if only in Spirit.


Stand for Oneness.

Stand up for Oneness.

Do not let fear infect your heart.

Do not hate that which you despise—simply send it Love.

Send it Love in phone calls.

Send it Love in letters.

Send it Love in donations.

Send it Love in action.

Send it Love in energy.

Send it Love in thought.

Be a Warrior for Love, for Oneness, for compassion which is a form of both.


Do not allow that which you “hate” to make you hate, to draw you into separation. The “fight” is not between Us and Them. The “fight,” if you will, is between Oneness and separation, between unity and duality. Between Us/ Them, and All Are One.


To Be the Love that you Are, stand in your brokenness as a Child of God and do not be afraid to show your brokenness, your heartbrokenness, your tears. Hearts will be opened one by one. The children will open them. The parents will open them. You will open them. Only the hardest hearts will not open, and even they will not be able withstand the tidal wave of Love that is coming, that is on its way, that is you and that you are part of and that is One with the Divine. Amen.


Until then, stay in Unity, and do what your heart tells you. You are Loved and Blessed, as are All.

All are One.

All are One.

All are One.





I welcome your thoughts, comments, and ideas here, or in Facebook comments, or via email.

Much LOVE and Light to All,


Ask the Guides #6: How to Prepare for Coming Changes?

You don’t have to be an intuitive to know that something big is happening in the world right now. There is a feeling everywhere that things are heightened, whether in the personal or political or energetic sphere. Those who are especially sensitive to energy have been reporting a growing sense of anticipation coupled with a kind of agitation or discomfort—the sense that something is about to shift in a very big way. And then we have the recent volcanic eruptions in Hawai’i, the unrest in the Middle East, and just last night, a minor earthquake in San Francisco. Things, it’s fair to say, are shifting under our feet.

In the spiritual or metaphysical world, in particular, there is a lot of buzz. Some talk about long-prophesied Earth changes that will force us to reconsider our way of life, and others talk about “The Event,” an incoming wave of energy that will raise (or is currently raising) our collective consciousness.

Whatever the case is, change is on the horizon, and it’s good to be prepared. That’s why I chose the following question to bring to the Guides today, from K. who submitted it for my recent birthday raffle. (Thanks!)




K. asks:

What is the best way to prepare for change? And by change, I mean the buzz everyone is talking about a shift in consciousness, an evolution in humankind. 


The Guides respond:


Dear Ones, we would say this. Do not be afraid. That is the number one piece of guidance for anyone anywhere at this time, or really at any time. It is Time for the children of Earth to become aware of their Divine safety, no matter what happens in the outer world, or appears to. Since the fall of man, which is to say the descent of Earth into duality consciousness or separation consciousness, there has been Fear. And Fear is the opposite of Love, which is your nature and your birthright.


Now, we are not talking about small “l” love, the way you do. We are not talking about familial love or romantic love or “Oh my gosh I love that thing so much!” the way you do in your quite charming enthusiasm for this or that. No. We are talking about capital “L” Love, which is a Divine quality that is the basis of the Universe. It is the state of Union. It is the reconciliation of all things into One. It is the Oneness of all Beings. It is the reverence for life that is at the heart of existence. It is Being itself. It is God itself.


Now, all of this can be a cliché, or sound like a cliché, and that is not what we are talking about. We are not talking about living in a pink cloud where everything is dandy and you retreat from the world as it is. No. We are talking about opening yourself up to blaze with the Light of Creation which is your birthright and becoming aware of your Oneness with All that Is. Stepping into your brilliance, which is not about your ego but about your Light. The Light of Love that you are made of and that you were made for, and which you must naturally shower on all that you see, once you become aware of your origins and your True nature. Amen, Amen.


So how do you prepare for the changes that are coming? Well, number one, you Are the change. All of you who are awakening to your true nature, to your glory which is the glory of the Divine, you Are the change. You will bring in the change yourselves as you elevate your vibration to the frequency of Love. So the more you are in harmony with that elevation, the less bumpy that ride will be.


How do you do that, you may ask? How do you come into harmony with that elevation of frequency? Simply do not entertain fear. Do not entertain hatred. Do not entertain separation. Lift above the ordinary consciousness as much as possible through whatever means necessary and stay there as long as you can. Meditation, yoga, creativity, stillness, solitude, laughter—whatever gives you joy and peace. Whatever space you can give yourself to feel uplifted, to feel protected, to feel held, embrace that space and give yourself that state. There is no need to contribute to negativity in any form. Let it go. Do not try to affect outer events. Instead, tend to the inner work, which is raising the vibration and living in the Light.


There is a misconception among human beings that attending to what is “wrong” in the world is how we bring about what is “right.” This is untrue. The way you bring about right is to create the inner conditions through which the outer events are no longer possible. So do not feel guilty about turning away, to some degree, from the outer events of life. To the extent that you give them credence, send them Love. Send them Light. Bless all involved, and by all, we mean all. Every last person, every participant, every faction, every leader. All deserve Love and all deserve blessing. Each one is an actor on a stage, and the play being performed is the greatest in history. So thank them for their Service as a soul, even if the part they’re playing makes no sense to you, or looks like villainy, or scares you to death.


Which brings us back to fear. The number one thing you can do, we say again and again, is stay above fear. Watch your fear from a distance, but do not believe it. Bless your fear as you would bless a frightened child. Affirm your safety, over and over again. Affirm the inherent goodness of All: of all events, of all happenings, of all changes, of all Beings. Because, in fact, this is the Truth. There is goodness in All that Is, and even the Ones playing the darkness, playing the roles of villains, appearing to do great damage, even they are contributing to the change, though not in the way you might like. They are catalyzing the end of the old world by speeding it to its conclusion so the new world may be born. For this, they are blessed, in their own way, as the rest of us prepare to take up the mantle of the new Earth and of the new age and rebuild a world where Love can reign. Amen, Amen.


So, dearest Ones, be of faith. Be of good cheer. Remember your safety at all times. Look upon the world as a mother would: fondly, with forbearance, with an understanding that growth is necessary and sometimes messy. Affirm your faith in the graceful evolution that is happening and is necessary and that sometimes may give rise to fear but which is ultimately designed to vanquish fear once and for all. Keep your eye on the prize, as they say, and the prize is nothing less than the soul’s liberation, the soul’s evolution, as a collective movement into Light.


We send you all Love with a capital “L.” Blessed Be, dear Ones. Be at Peace.



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Ask the Guides #5: What to Do When We Feel Ourselves Going Backward?



This question is from me, but before I share it and the response from the Guides, I have to tell you about my morning. Because I think maybe you are going to be able to relate.


A few days ago, I got back from an ecstatic five-day retreat at Esalen with Paul Selig, a psychic and channel who is doing revolutionary work raising the vibration of the collective through his livestreams, books, and retreats.


I came back from the retreat feeling high. As in, in-my-Higher-Self high. As I drove home along the coast and then through the oaky hills and garlic fields, everything looked radiant and preternaturally beautiful. I felt so connected to all the amazing people I had shared that experience with. Everything was perfect. All was One. When I greeted my dog at the door—she was the only one home—she leaned into me as if she knew something had shifted.


And then, over the next few days, I started to crash. I was inexplicably exhausted. As happy as I was to see my family, I was also overwhelmed by the noise and demands of domestic life. I just wanted to be immobile on the couch, or else flee back to Esalen, not just to soak au naturel in a hot tub overlooking the Pacific—which was pretty effing awesome— but to recapture that elevated state that felt so delicious and so right.


Then came this morning. There was nothing special about it, except maybe I drank too much coffee and ate too little breakfast before dropping my son off at school and heading to Safeway to pick up Gatorade and granola bars for the middle school track meet like I promised. It was somewhere in the household cleaning aisle, while pondering the mop heads, that I felt an old sense of despair start to drag me down.


What was it, exactly? Existential loneliness? Emotional fatigue? I didn’t know, only that everything felt wrong and everything in front of me, from work to home to life in general, seemed impossibly difficult, like swimming against the current and uphill. This feeling didn’t make sense, but I knew it intimately, and it was discouraging to be back “there” again. Hadn’t I just transcended my lower self for nearly five whole days? Didn’t I know who I really was? How could I have lost hold of that feeling so quickly?


Long story short, I managed to shift the energy as the day went on. I texted with a friend, baked some muffins while listening to one of Paul’s audio books, and got some work done. I also turned to the Guides, who had typically compassionate and useful advice, which I share with you below. I hope you find it helpful, as I did.


Much LOVE to you all,






Q: What do we do in those situations where we feel like we’ve suddenly gone backwards—gotten caught in old feelings, old patterns, a low vibration, the ego self, and/or fear?


The Guides respond:


Love yourself. Now this is a cliché, and not well understood, so let us explain. We do not mean “like” yourself. You may indeed “like” yourself, your personality, or you may not. It doesn’t matter, actually, though this may surprise you. You may have aspects of yourself, your small self, that you would like to change, and you may or may not find yourself able to change them in the moment. That is all right. It honestly doesn’t matter as much as you think.


What does matter is Love, and the ability you have, the action you take, to Love yourself. Now again, this doesn’t not mean “like.” You may or you may not. We are not talking about the spontaneous feeling that arises by itself in like or dislike.


We are talking about Love. And that is an action, a choice, a decision you make in the moment to send yourself Love and in doing so connect with your Higher Self in a way that changes your vibration and shifts your experience of Who You Are.


Let us explain. On the plane of duality, you are both. The lower self and the Higher. The one who suffers and the One who does not. On the plane of unity, what some call the 5th dimension, the lower self is subsumed into the Higher, and there is no conflict, no pain or suffering as you experience it here—no separation. Only Love.


So that is how you treat yourself when you find yourself sinking into the mindset of the lower self. With enormous Love. With enormous compassion. Not judging or analyzing what is happening, but sending it Love as an energetic action through the Self as funded by the Divine. Does that make sense?


Send yourself Love as a mother would, the Divine mother, or the earthly mother who sees her child beyond the child’s moods or behaviors or acting out. The mother who Knows the child’s heart, the tenderness there, the need and the fear, and also senses the grandeur of the child’s Being and worth of the child’s soul. That is You as Love in action, the Mother of yourself, the conduit of Divine love for yourself, as your Self. Do you understand?


This can happen anywhere at any time, in the grocery aisle or in traffic or at the dinner table with your raucous family. Just stop and visualize that Love streaming down on you, no matter the state you’re in, from the Divine that is You, through you and for you, no matter what.


That is Love in action, and it is the force that will unify all the parts of yourself and bring you into alignment with Who You Really Are, day after day. We honor your work and your goodness, and we ask you to be gentle with yourself as we are gentle with you, as a mother would be gentle with her child, knowing that growth is long and hard work and all is indeed well.


Blessings, and Amen.




Spring Equinox 2018: Solar Storms, Energetic Shifts, and Inner and Outer Change

Have you heard about the massive solar storms currently hitting Earth? According to an article in Elephant Journal, “Currently there is a large, 200,000-kilometer wide, canyon-shaped coronal hole that has opened up in the sun’s atmosphere, dividing almost the entire Earth-facing hemisphere of the sun. From this hole, on Tuesday, March 13th, a stream of high-speed solar wind (hot plasma) was ejected, and flew toward Earth at a speed faster than 600 kilometers per second. The highly charged wind has been buffeting Earth’s magnetic field (protective bubble) ever since.”


When there are intense changes in the Earth’s electromagnetic field like this, we can’t help but feel it, even if we don’t know exactly what it is we’re feeling. You may be extra edgy right now, or out of it, or wired, tired, and emotional, all at once. One friend commented, “I feel like I’ve lost the plot.” I know what she means. I, too, have been feeling spacey and unmoored, and at the same time anxious and excited, like something really big is about to happen.


That may be because it is. According to a variety of sources—spiritual teachers, bloggers, and channelers I follow online—a big energy shift or “upgrade” is coming in along with these solar storms. Some call it “The Event” and claim it’s a long-awaited dimensional shift, even the advent of Christ Consciousness on earth. Others are more low-key, saying it’s just another “upgrade,” another wave of Light to help lift us all up on our paths. Either way, it feels like something important is happening.


I asked my Guides for more information to pass along to all of you, and here’s what they said. I’ve highlighted some of the most important points in bold.




Tell them they are Beloved. Tell them this is a time of great Change.


Change is to be expected, inside and out.


Do not be afraid, Beloved Ones. Your time is coming. We are approaching a Time when once again Light will be ascendant on the Earth, and darkness will be vanquished and relegated to its rightful place in the shadows. This will not happen all at once. It is happening now and it will continue to happen as Time continues to pass and to meld into itself.


What is meant by this? Time is rearranging itself and there may be distortions. This is nothing to worry about. Ride the waves of time as you do everything else. Let it Be. The Changes that are coming will be greatly beneficial to those who are of the Light. What took you tremendous strength to move or change before will now shift with a touch of your finger. That is coming. It is not Here yet but it is on its way. Do not fear.


What of the chaos happening on your Earth? Do not intervene. Do not give it undue attention.


What you do attend to, give it Light. Send it Light and not anxiety, not fear, not fretting and hand-wringing. Believe it or not, that nervous energy only feeds the forces that fuel and thrive on chaos, prolongs the life of crises and upsets by giving them undue legitimacy. Do you understand?


We are not saying they (the events in the “real world”) are not “real.” They are, on the level of reality on which they exist. But that level of reality is not the one we are asking you to attend to. We are asking you to attend to the causal level of reality. The energetic level from which all things emerge.


In a sense, when you are focusing on the “what” that is happening in your world, you are looking at the past. That is to say, you are gazing at the products of old thoughts and outdated energies and fretting over them, as if something can be done.


Well, something can be done, but not to those events which already exist and have already been dreamed into being by others (and perhaps by you, to some degree, to the extent that you projected fear energetically into the future at some time in the past). Are you starting to understand the way it works?


Project your energy into the future by envisioning Light, and then let that light-filled future come to pass and become the Now in which you live.


This is your task, and in a sense, your burden, though you will come to know it as a great gift and even a form of freedom over time.


That is to say, you are free to project into the future, in the form of Light, in the form of energy, that which you “dream.” You do this with where you put your attention now. So put your attention on that which you want in the future. Not on your “lack”—that will bring you more lack. The Universe is nothing if not dispassionate in its willingness to bring you that which you have “ordered” via your attention in the past. Via your generating thoughts and energy states. Via the “weather” you have created energetically that has served as a calling card and instructed Spirit how you are to be treated and responded to on an energetic level. Amen.


Now some of you may object to this on technical grounds, or on the grounds that it seems “cruel.” It is not. It is free will and a learning opportunity.


Once you realize you are not “consigned” to a certain reality but instead can become the author of your reality through careful management of your own energy and your own awareness, you are free.


You are free to choose, free to experience, free to lift the veil and see the Truth. This is what we want for you and what you—the larger You—want for yourself. Embrace the new reality and be at peace.


Namaste, Amen.





I’d love to hear your thoughts on this, and your reports of how you’re feeling and what you’re experiencing during this fascinating time! Please comment below or on Facebook, or send me a note!

And if a personal session with me and the Guides would be useful to get you through these times, I would love to help!

Much LOVE to you all,


Ask the Guides #4: Who to Believe, When Spiritual Teachers Disagree?

What do we do when we encounter seeming opposite views about the purpose or nature of life from different spiritual teachers we respect or admire? That’s the thorny question addressed in today’s Ask The Guides.


B. asks:


I am a student and follower of A Course In Miracles, which teaches forgiveness and releasing fear and guilt so we can return home faster to our real home with God—a letting go of this illusory universe.


Recently I read some positive words from Abraham Hicks [a popular channeled teacher] and I loved it but then I started to notice how these guides who teach as Abraham share with students how to manifest things in your life. A Course in Miracles teaches that manifesting is fine, but to remember to forgive because they are all illusions and be careful about making it too “real.” Abraham seems to be more of a proponent of this illusory life, saying let’s live in joy and have all the things we want and we are the leading edge.


There seems to be a deep divide between spiritual teachers about this life and what we’re here for. Am I misinterpreting this?




Dear One,


We thank you for your question and for the purity of heart with which you ask it. We would suggest that both are true. That is to say, that this life is illusory, that the Reality undergirding this human life, this material plane, is much, much greater than anything you can imagine and much, much more significant. That any material gain or material conditions you experience here are vastly overshadowed by the deep significance of your life on a spiritual level. That what is happening on the inside, the inner work, is the closest thing you can get to touching the significance of the spiritual life, the Reality on a soul level, which is the true reality and the only reality that ultimately matters.


Now, at the same time, any “play” that you do on the material level, as long as it is undergirded by energetic truth, is fine and good. The Abraham work which you reference is concerned with the congruence between inner and outer Truth. That is to say, how does your inner Truth influence the outer? How does your energetic state create the outer experience? This is a field of study and a valid one in understanding the power of energy, of intention, of choice. All this is well and good. Some will be more drawn to this type of work than others will be. The critical distinction here is the WHY behind it. That is to say, why are you working with energy? Are you working with energy to make nice things appear in your life which you can enjoy? OK as far as it goes, as long as the things themselves do not become idols. As long as the power itself does not become an idol. As long as one does not judge the path of another who has not yet achieved the ability to do such things. As long as the “trick” does not become the point.


If the play itself is seen as that, as Divine play, we smile upon it. As long as the ego does not become entwined in the “power” of that play. As long as the energy itself is the goal, the awareness of that energy, the honoring of that energy, and the use of that energy to uplift All, to connect All, to experience Oneself as an aspect of the Divine. But not for the sake of the creations themselves. Does this make sense?


Because in the end, the goal is to give up everything. To give up all things. To give up all attachments. To give up all emotions that cause One to suffer. To return, in total, to the energy of the Divine. To total Oneness. There are many paths to this end, and many, many lifetimes needed to complete this journey. Do not be concerned about the “right” way. The “right” way is the Way that you are on, with its twists and turns, its up and downs, its moments of darkness and Light. Play as you see fit. Pray as you see fit. Know your reality as an illusion, and enjoy it, yet, to the extent that you can. Honor the energy and the Love undergirding it all, and know that level as the Reality to which you will return, and the One to which you must attend, in the end, above all else.


Know yourself as blessed, and a Child of God. Thank you, and Amen.

Ask the Guides #3: How Do We Respond to Mass Shootings?

Heartbroken and soul-sick in the wake of another senseless school shooting, I decided to bring to the Guides the question I imagine is on the minds of every reasonable person and parent in this country.

I asked:

“How do we respond to these horrific, repeated events? Like everyone, I feel sickened and helpless. Part of me wants to turn away. I can’t stand to live in a culture like this, one that would allow this to happen to its children. Even seeing it through a “spiritual lens” feels like a cop-out, like an attempt to justify it or minimize the horror.

How can we possibly understand this? What can we do?”




The Guides respond:


First of all, honor your heart. It is your human heart, your tenderness, that you are feeling. Underneath all the feelings, all the rage and helplessness, is hurt. How can they do this to me, to us, to our children? Don’t they see? No, they don’t. But you do. You who hurt, who grieve for lost souls and lost lives. That open-heartedness is your treasure, your gift. Without it you would lose the ability to love, as others have. So cherish your open-heartedness, for it is the answer to humanity’s woes.


Now, what do you do with your heartbreak? How do you respond? This will depend on the person. Some will be motivated to action. Others will be guided to actions of Light. Still others will make art, or music, or speak out in their way. Do not judge each other for the contribution each one makes. Each One has his role, her talent or gift.


But do not descend into rage. It is rage that pulls the trigger, rage that smashes windows and punches others in the face. Rage says, “There is nothing we can do and so I will explode, will make you the cause of my suffering and its terrible target.” Do not go there, as they say.


Neither descend into fear. It is fear that multiplies fear, that proliferates guns, that descends into silence. Fear cowers in the corner or arms itself to the teeth. Fear is the human heart closing in on itself, and that does no one any good.


So what do you do? Lift it up. Lift it up into the Light. Now, some of you reading may find this “Pollyanna,” may think it is an excuse, and we understand. But hear Us out. What we are prescribing is a very deliberate action of the consciousness that will have an effect, we assure you.


Think of the shooter. Lift him up into the Light. Honor his humanity. See him as a Child of God who has gone astray. Now, you may not “like” this. That is OK. You don’t need to like it. You don’t need to feel comfortable. But try it, as a practice. Send Light to his soul and to his human self which is broken beyond repair, in a sense. Reaffirm his status as a Child of God and you will shift on a spiritual level and so will he.


Same with the victims. See them as eternal. Bless their suffering. Shower it with Light. That doeesn’t mean “like” it. Of course you are are horrified. But sending it Light, sending them Light, bathing them in Divine Love, will lessen their pain and everyone’s pain and redeem them in the Light. What do we mean by redeem? We mean untouched. We mean restored. Returned to their wholeness in the Light, untouched by the horror of events. Say their names, look at their faces, and send them Light.


Now what of the lawmakers, and those who support them? This is the hardest of them all, in a sense. How can they allow it? How can they continue to dabble in fear and death? Because of fear. Fear, fear, fear. Fear and greed. And what fights fear? Only Light. What fights greed? Only Divine abundance.


So send them Light. Wish them Divine abundance. Never mind your aversion to their actions and to their words. Claim them for the Light. You can say it aloud when you see them on the TV or hear them on the news. “I claim you for the Light. I see you in the Light. I elevate you to the level of Light.”


This may sound frivolous, but it is not. Everything you hate, send it Light. Everything you oppose, send it Light. Everything you fear and abhor, send it Light. Send light to tragedy, to hatred, to bigotry, to ignorance and fear. Meeting those things on their own level only assures they will not change.


Meeting them with Light, however, will effect change. When you meet something with Light, when you hold someone in Light, you elevate them to a higher vibration. You create a spark of consciousness. This happens across time and happens across space. It is not “magic” but more like a law of physics you haven’t quite proven yet. That consciousness changes belief, and the action of Light, performed for another, has profound consequences over time and space.


And then “thoughts and prayers,” when done deliberately and not as a platitude or panacea—when the thoughts are “You are Divine” and “I See you in the Light” and “I hold you in the Love of God,” and the prayer is an active shifting of deliberate perception, an elevating of what is seen into the Light—then those “thoughts and prayers” have tremendous power to change the world.


We bless you souls in your suffering and grief, in your (seeming) helplessness, in your violence and loss. We honor your tender hearts and we hold you in the Light as the Sons and Daughters of God that you Are. We ask you to do the same for your brethren everywhere, at every level of consciousness, every status of behavior, every political leaning or level of development they may possess or exist at. Send them Light. Send them love. Affirm their humanity and their Divinity and their inclusion in the Family of Light.


That, above all, will heal the world and bring it to its rightful place into the Light. We bless you all and accompany you, now and always. Amen.